Corinne Olympios Says She Doesn't Blame DeMario Jackson For The “Bachelor In Paradise” Incident

On Tuesday night, ABC interrupted the dating doings of Bachelor in Paradise to air host Chris Harrison’s interview with Corinne Olympios, who, nearly three months ago, was at the center of a sexual incident on the first day of filming that turned into a major news event. Two Bachelor in Paradise producers submitted complaints to Warner Bros., the studio that produces the Bachelor franchise for ABC, about Olympios’ sexual encounter with fellow contestant DeMario Jackson. As a result, production was shut down. Though the complaints never became public, the subsequent Warner Bros. investigation, which ended up determining that no impropriety had taken place, clearly focused on whether Olympios had been too inebriated to consent to sex.

Last Tuesday’s episode of Bachelor in Paradise featured Harrison’s talk with Jackson, but since Jackson had already spoken with E! News in late June, there was little new in the discussion. Olympios, however, has remained silent until now, other than issuing statements through her publicist, the first of which stoked media coverage when she referred to herself as a “victim” who had “little memory” of what had happened between her and Jackson.

When Bachelor in Paradise resumed filming, neither Olympios nor Jackson rejoined the cast, but both agreed to appear during the season to sit down with Harrison. (As far as whether either of them was financially compensated to do so, or was paid off in any way, a spokesperson for Warner Bros. declined to comment.) In the interview with Harrison, Olympios repeated that she didn’t “remember much of” that first day of filming. She “definitely over-drank,” and she said she had recently begun a new medication that does not mix with alcohol. When Harrison pointed out that she seemed like “normal Corinne,” she agreed. “Yeah. Like, it can look like you’re totally present and you’re totally there, and your mind is just not anywhere near,” she said. “I mean, it impairs your judgment.” (Olympios did not name the medication.)

When Harrison asked Olympios how she felt about Jackson on Day 2 of production, she said things were fine. And then he asked — and this question was teased relentlessly while promoting the interview — as to whether she feels Jackson did anything wrong. No, Olympios said she doesn’t. “I mean, there’s no way for you guys to know that, like, she’s, like, mentally checked out,” she said, referring to herself in the third person. “Like, Corinne is not here right now. You know? Which is beyond scary, but, you know, just — it is what it is, I guess. I don’t think it’s anyone’s fault.”

Olympios did say that she had been angry with Jackson for going to the media first — presumably referring to the E! interview — before she had a chance to “gather my thoughts and collect myself.” And why did she think he did that, Harrison asked. Her answer symbolizes the muddle of this interview: “I can’t help but feel like maybe he felt like I thought that he did something to me,” Olympios said.

Harrison emphasized throughout the conversation that Jackson — who was vilified on The Bachelorette, and impugned further because of the allegations — had a terrible time of it. Olympios was shown a clip of Harrison’s interview with Jackson in which he cried. “I mean, it was hard for me to go through something like that, too,” she said. As for what she wants people to know, Olympios said, “I really just want people to know that I don’t blame DeMario. I never pointed fingers at DeMario. I never said a bad word about DeMario.” The interview closed with Harrison thanking her for her candor, and Olympios thanking “everybody that did support me.”

Missing from the interview were any specifics about why the shutdown occurred, and how it was carried out by producers. Harrison also did not say that because of this incident between Olympios and Jackson, not only have the drinking rules on the show been changed, but so have the rules about medications. (According to TMZ, they now need to be dispensed by a nurse.) And though Harrison carried on a conversation about consent with the returning cast of Bachelor in Paradise in the Season 4 premiere, he didn’t discuss the issue with Olympios, who had just told him she can’t remember her sexual encounter with Jackson.

Olympios’s interview was the final chapter of the Bachelor in Paradise scandal and it played out the same way it did on television — with exploitative teases, and a frustrating hollowness.

Kate Aurthur is the chief Los Angeles correspondent for BuzzFeed News. Aurthur covers the television and film industries.

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Taylor Swift’s Master Plan To Dominate Until 2019

Taylor Swift once said she hates being called calculating. But professionally, well, Taylor Swift might just be the most calculating celebrity in the world. Nothing — not her tweets, not her timing, not her announcements — is done by accident. And nowhere is that precise premeditation more successful than in the months leading up to a new album, where she creates a release cycle so finely tuned it generates more hype and money than anyone else.

“Artists as big as Taylor Swift don’t work in a vacuum,” said David Philp, a professor of music and entertainment industries at William Paterson University. “Everything we see has been in the planning stages, probably for many months.”

Because Swift is such a massive star, and because her team (who did not respond to multiple requests for a comment) is so smart in their planning, how she chooses to release an album not only tells us a lot about her, it’s a microcosm for how the music industry has changed.

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Swift’s Reputation album art.

Swift’s sixth studio album, Reputation, isn’t due out until Nov. 10, which means — with her first single, “Look What You Made Me Do,” being released last week — Swift is working on an almost three-month lead time. This more than 70-day buildup to a new album is hardly standard anymore in the music industry. In fact, the way Swift is releasing Reputation harkens back to an older model of music distribution that very few artists can still work well within.

“Long lead cycles like Taylor’s [are] a relic of print medium,” said George Howard, an associate professor of music business at Berklee College of Music. “Long lead magazines — like Vanity Fair, Wired, etc. — all plotted their issues out months in advance to accommodate for writing, editing, and printing.” Historically, an artist who wanted to get press coverage needed to announce the release of their album early enough to get space in those issues, their best chance for finding new fans.

But in the last 15 years, the album release cycle has shortened drastically because of the internet. Starting with Napster and Myspace, and carrying through the rise of social media and the streaming revolution, artists are no longer reliant on print media. In fact, now a long lead time can do more harm than good. “Campaigns are getting shorter and shorter,” said Judy Miller Silverman, the founder and CEO of Motormouth Media, a boutique PR firm that works with artists like Animal Collective and Sophie. “People are finally realizing that print media is a shot in the dark.”

“It was just the beginning of two more years of Swift.”

The internet, of course, is where Swift thrives at building hype. Last week, all of the star’s social media suddenly went dark. Her photos, her bios, her friends, her retweets, her avatar — all were gone, and in their place hung a suspense worth millions. “I knew this was it,” Sammie Carter, a 29-year-old Swift fan from Long Beach, California, said. “I knew she was prepping for another release.” Of course, Carter was right. Soon there was a glitching 10-second video of a snake on Swift’s Instagram, signifying the official start of another Taylor Swift release cycle.

In the Instagram comments, the fandom kicked into high gear, posting snake emojis and exclamation points, and all-caps screaming. “Everything she does is so purposeful and she’s very clever,” Carter said. “So I knew what she was up to.”

In the days that followed, there was the announcement of Reputation, with accompanying art. Then, she released “Look What You Made Me Do” at midnight on a Friday because (as of 2015) the Billboard Hot 100 chart counts streams and purchases from Friday to Friday, which put her song in the best position to potentially go No. 1. There was also the lyric video, a Good Morning America music video teaser, a UPS partnership, snake-themed merchandise, an MTV VMA premiere of the music video, two Target zines, and a Ticketmaster collaboration that encourages fans to buy merchandise and preorder the album in an effort to get tickets to a not-yet-announced tour.

It was just the beginning of two more years of Swift.

Nothing signified that the era of the long lead album release was coming to a close quite like Beyoncé’s 2013 surprise self-titled album, which sold 617,000 copies in the three days that counted toward its first week sales. Beyoncé broke the previous first-week record held by, of course, Swift’s 2012 album Red, which sold 456,000 units. “It was proven that a single released months in advance didn’t have to take place,” Philp said. “Fans didn’t need a tease, or a taste, of the music before release to convince them to buy the album.” But very few artists move more than 100,000 copies in their first week. And, of course, most artists can’t pull off a surprise drop. Beyoncé and Swift are in a totally different league, and their release cycles prove that: Swift’s PR plan is longer than any other artist’s, and Beyoncé’s is shorter.

“It’s becoming increasingly clear how outmoded this long-lead cycle is,” Berklee professor Howard said. “Taylor Swift is somewhat in a class of her own, and is not instructive to other artists.” Most artists are fumbling somewhat in the dark now. There is no one-size-fits-all promotion plan that will work in the digital age. “There aren’t rules to album releases anymore,” said Kristen Foster, a publicist at PMK-BNC who works with major artists such as Tim McGraw and Joan Jett.

“The longer the hype cycle, the longer Swift’s songs are played.”

Some artists still want mainstream print coverage, some want to get picked up by alternative and indie publications, and some just want to hand their music straight to their fans. “The rule book has gone out the window, and bands can decide what works best for their music and their fan base,” said Foster. There’s an excitement to the surprise drop that artists and fans love. In the past four years since Beyoncé’s self-titled album, Kendrick Lamar, Radiohead, Drake, and Rihanna have dropped surprise albums without promotional buildup. In the last year, two brilliant and beautiful albums by artists who aren’t superstars — Chance the Rapper’s Coloring Book and James Blake’s The Colour in Anything — were released unexpectedly. There is no data to prove whether those albums would have sold better with a longer hype cycle or not, but the surprise drop certainly has a dramatic urgency that gives artists a bit of attention they might not have gotten otherwise.

A half dozen experts on the changing music industry agreed that artists are increasingly opting for shorter cycles. Motormouth Media CEO Silverman said that for her clients, a happy medium is something like a two-week buildup, which gives fans enough time to get excited, but not so much time that the hype dies off before their album comes out.

So why, in 2017, when everyone else is compressing their album cycles into bite-size moments, is Taylor Swift maintaining a three-month hype cycle? Because she’s an artist, but she’s also a brilliant businessperson.

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Swift’s “Look What You Made Me Do” video.

Silverman guessed Swift’s approach “has to do with some big money thing: sponsorship, show, commercial, event.” Philp put it more succinctly: “The whole purpose is monetization. How can they make as much money as possible in the beginning when the hype is at its peak? … The old model can still benefit the massive artists.”

Every stream, every video play, every radio turn makes Swift money, and she has made it clear in the last four years of her career that she will milk each album for every coin it’s worth. In an op-ed for the Wall Street Journal in 2014, Swift argued that art should never be free, and that the music industry’s future was sunny because fans will pay for music. It was the first in a series of financially based anti-streaming proclamations Swift would make. Just after the release of 1989 in 2014, Swift pulled all of her music from Spotify, saying that the service did not appropriately value her art. (Spotify functions on direct deals for performers, and whatever deal Swift struck with the company to return her catalog to the service earlier this summer only applies to her work and has not been disclosed.)

While still on the 1989 tour in June 2015, Swift then turned her attention to Apple Music, writing a stern letter on her Tumblr that she would be withholding 1989 from the streaming service because of the service’s three-month free trial, which she said could be debilitating to young struggling artists. Apple retreated within 24 hours, saying they would pay artists for the three-month period. Swift then signed a deal with Apple Music (like Drake), giving them exclusive streaming rights for her entire catalog and performing commercials for the streaming service. In June, that deal ended, and her work returned to other streaming sites as well.

Streaming is still a fluctuating distribution system that most artists don’t have the clout or financial leeway to negotiate with, the way Swift has done consistently and successfully. After all, “Look What You Made Me Do” broke Spotify’s global first-day record with 8 million streams. The video broke Adele’s single-day Vevo play record with 30 million views. On the first three days of airplay alone, it hit the Billboard Top 100 at No. 77, and is expected to steal the No. 1 slot from the previously untouchable “Despacito.” The single is predicted to sell half a million downloads in its first week, which is more than any song has sold in the past six months. All of these record-breaking numbers create headlines, and all of those headlines add to the hype. The longer the hype cycle, the longer Swift’s songs are played in anticipation of the full album release — and the more financial opportunity to sell music.

In addition to the money, there are the accolades. Swift has long timed her releases to bring as many Grammys home as possible, releasing a single before the Sept. 30 deadline and an album thereafter, which allows her to be nominated for Record of the Year and Song of the Year one year for the first single and Album of the Year the next. For example, “Look What You Made Me Do” will be up for the 2018 Grammys, and Reputation (and possibly some future single) will be considered for the 2019 awards. Swift has been using this timeline since she released “Love Story,” the lead single from 2008’s Fearless (intentionally or not) on Sept. 12, 2008, and the album on Nov. 11. The Grammy year difference also keeps Swift in the public eye for longer than any other artist. The first single off 1989, “Shake It Off,” was released on Aug. 18, 2014. Swift gave her Album of the Year acceptance speech 549 days later on Feb. 15, 2016 — that’s 18 months of constant attention. (For comparison, Beyoncé released Lemonade on April 23, 2016, and lost the Grammy on Feb. 13, 2017, 296 days later.)

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Fans at Taylor Swift’s 1989 tour at Raymond James Stadium on Oct. 31, 2015, in Tampa, Florida.

Swift’s fans have come to expect and love the long release cycle. “The Swift team is an expert on their fans,” Philp said. “Besides the [digital] data they can collect, they’re also out at every tour stop, watching how the fans react to a song, seeing if they take video and share it across networks, seeing what type of merch they like best, seeing the age of the fans.”

While Beyoncé fans love the drama of a surprise drop, the Swift fans who spoke to BuzzFeed News said they didn’t want one. “Although I’d be absolutely ecstatic and amazed that a new album would be there, I think I’d miss the excitement and buildup of a release date,” Chloe Irving, a 17-year-old Taylor Swift fan from the UK, said. Waiting three months for an album is, for Swifties, a pleasure and an expectation.

For nonfans, though, the cycle seems long because it absolutely is. But it also pays off. The extended release generates headlines, breaks records, and creates piles of money.

Swift is one of only a few artists who sell albums. Forbes named her the highest-paid artist of 2016, estimating that off her blowout 1989 tour and product endorsements, she probably made $170 million. Her system for new releases might be calculated and exhausting, and not trendy, but it absolutely works for her. ●

Kelsey McKinney is a writer based in Austin, Texas. She has written for The Atlantic, Slate, The Daily Beast and TimeOut New York. She likes her sandwiches fat and her novels slim and full of heartbreak.

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Logic's Hit Song Is Driving People To The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline In Record Numbers

On Sunday, 27-year-old rapper Logic took the stage at the MTV Video Music Awards to perform his hit single “1-800-273-8255,” which is the actual phone number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. As he rapped lyrics like “I want you to be alive / You don’t gotta die today,” he stood alongside survivors of suicide attempts and individuals who lost people in their lives to suicide.

“I just want to take a moment to thank you for giving me a platform to talk about something that mainstream media doesn’t want to talk about,” Logic said after his performance. “Mental health, anxiety, suicide, depression, and so much more that I talk about on this album.”

The performance was an emotional one, with people crying in the audience and onstage, and, according to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, it had an even greater impact than people saw on television. The hotline saw about a 50% increase in callers after the performance aired, and then again when MTV re-aired it later that night. There were a range of reasons why people called in, from being in crisis, to wanting to volunteer, to thanking the organization for what they’re doing.

“We even had an individual who called and he didn’t know what the number was,” Shari Sinwelski, the associate project director of the lifeline, told BuzzFeed News. “He thought maybe it was going to be a radio station or something, and so when he called and he realized what it was, he actually needed to talk to somebody. It’s interesting to think about those people who maybe would never have called in another situation.”

When Logic released “1-800-273-8255 on April 28, the organization said it received the second highest daily call volume in its history (the first highest being the day that Robin Williams died in 2014). There was a 27% increase in calls when “1-800-273-8255” dropped, compared to their average volume on the same day of the week for the previous three weeks.

Sinwelski said that the lifeline wasn’t involved in the creative process behind Logic’s Billboard-charting song, but that the rapper did approach them about two weeks prior to its release to ask for permission to use the phone number as his song title.

“We’re always trying to get the word out about how to get help for people who are in suicidal crisis, so we thought it would be a really good collaboration,” she said.

Before the VMAs, Logic’s team got in touch with the lifeline because they wanted to involve suicide survivors in his performance. Lifeline connected Logic with a local Los Angeles crisis center that found people who were willing to participate.

Sinwelski was one of many onstage with Logic on Sunday night, and described it as a powerful. “I don’t think that in the history of suicide prevention we’ve ever had such a big moment in the spotlight,” she said.

“There’s a lot that we can learn from people who have been through a really dark place and said, ‘I’m still here, I’m still standing, and this is how i’ve done it,’” she added. “I think Logic had heard that message when we’d spoken to him in the past about trying to give that message of hope out there, that hope and healing can happen.”

Ten days before Logic performed “1-800-273-8255” at the VMAs, he also released a music video for the song, starring Don Cheadle, Matthew Modine, Coy Stewart from Are We There Yet?, and Nolan Gould from Modern Family. Since it dropped on Aug. 17, the video has been viewed nearly 17 million times.

“’1-800-273-8255′ was a really hard one to write, just for the simple fact that, like, it starts out so depressing, and I had to put myself in the mind state and in that mentality to write it,” Logic said in an interview with MTV News. (He was unavailable to be interviewed for this story.) “And honestly, I didn’t enjoy making the song because it was such a hard thing to do. But I enjoyed the outcome.”

Earlier this year, there were lots of conversations about the depiction of suicide in pop culture and whether or not fictional stories about suicide glamorize the act. Sinwelski believes it’s possible to portray a narrative about suicide without glorifying it, as long as creators follow media guidelines and read the research that’s been done on the subject matter.

What differentiates Logic’s song from other TV shows, films, and music, according to Sinwelski, is its message of hope.

“It’s not a bad thing if you’re having a difficult time — it’s just about trying to find a way to cope with that,” she said. “Hopefully, seeing a video like this and hearing a song like this will let them know, if they’re feeling overwhelmed or if they’re feeling like their life is not worth living, that there are people who are willing to listen and talk to them and try to help get them connected with some help.”

Amazon Is Courting Millennials With A Student Discount On Music Streaming

Amazon announced on Tuesday a discounted student plan on unlimited music streaming for $4.99 per month, the company’s latest effort to court young consumers.

The discount on music streaming, which is normally $7.99 for Prime members and is only available to verified students at degree-granting college or universities in the US and UK, comes shortly after the company launched its “instant pickup” program, which allows students at five college campuses to pick up select items (stocked at the locations) within “two minutes” of ordering from the Amazon app.

Students are an important demographic for the company. The aim of pickup programs was to target students, who are more likely to use Prime than older consumers, Ripley MacDonald, who runs Amazon’s student programs, told Bloomberg last August.

“On a college campus, you have all of your future customers in one place,” he said. “We graduate students into full-price prime memberships.”

Amazon did not immediately respond to BuzzFeed News’ request for comment.

Brian T. Olsavsky, Amazon’s senior vice president and chief financial officer, told investors in an earnings call last year that “there’s a lot of different flavors of Prime,” including its student Prime membership, which is $49 a year and includes free two-day shipping.

“We are aggressively looking for a perfect Prime for everybody,” he added. “We know that, again, when customers try Prime, they like it, so it’s really just about getting them to try Prime and continuing to deliver great Prime benefits and great low prices and selection.”

Amazon did not disclose its Prime membership statistics in its most recent annual report. But Consumer Intelligence Research Partners, a consumer research company, estimated that the company has about 80 million Prime members spending on average about $1,300 per year, compared to about $700 per year for nonmembers.

It estimated that about 5–10% of those members have reduced-fee subscriptions like Amazon Student Prime.

This Real Housewives Star Just Opened Up About Her Melanoma Diagnosis

When checking your skin for possible warning signs of a melanoma, the most important thing to look out for is a new spot on the skin that doesn’t look like the rest of your moles or marks or a spot that’s changing in size, shape, or color. Another warning sign is that a spot that continues to itch, bleed, ooze, crust, or scab and won’t heal. So if you have one of these warning signs, go to the doctor to get it checked out.

Moles, brown spots, and growths on the skin are usually harmless — but not always. So take note if any of your moles change. You can also use the American Cancer Society’s “ABCDE guidelines” to spot the common signs of a melanoma. If you notice any of the features below, tell your doctor.

* A is for Asymmetry: One half of a mole or birthmark does not match the other.

* B is for Border: The edges are irregular, ragged, notched, or blurred.

* C is for Color: The color is not the same all over and may include different shades of brown or black, or sometimes with patches of pink, red, white, or blue.

* D is for Diameter: The spot is larger than six millimeters across (about a quarter inch — the size of a pencil eraser), although melanomas can sometimes be smaller than this.

* E is for Evolving: The mole is changing in size, shape, or color.

There Are Way More Hidden Meanings In The New Taylor Swift Video Than We First Thought

You may recall that back in 2014, Red was nominated for Album of the Year at the Grammys. When the winner was announced it led to this awkward moment where Taylor thought she’d won, but actually hadn’t. She was so devastated that she didn’t scoop the trophy that she missed all the afterparties, and then decided to make her next album “sonically cohesive” so that it would win next time around. And so, 1989 was born.

I Baked A Cake For The “Bake Off” Judges And It Was A Disaster

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Two years ago I, a man who cannot bake, decided to bake every technical challenge from that year’s Great British Bake Off to find out how difficult these challenges really are.

Here’s one of my technical challenge bakes: the tennis cake from Victorian Week.

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Mine is on the right. Not sure that is worth pointing out.

Anyway, it turns out the technical challenges are hard.

Still, I carried on making them. After finding out the challenge for each episode, I would bake it without help on the Thursday and then ask colleagues to review it on the Friday. Feedback from colleagues – all of this is genuine – ranged from “mate” and “you’ve fucked it” to “I’m sure they looked nice at some point” and “tastes as good as it looks”.

Since the last series ended I haven’t baked much at all, but then out of nowhere I got an email from Bake Off. They wanted me to come to the Bake Off tent with a bake that Paul Hollywood and Prue Leith would judge.

I got excited, and then I remembered some of my most recent baking attempts.

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I made these Jaffa Cakes and dampfnudeln during Bake Off 2016. (I don’t need to say that my bakes are the ones second and fourth from left, but they are.)

Fucking hell, I thought. They are going to die.

I had no idea what to bake. After some thinking (and a bottle of wine) I decided to reattempt my tennis cake, the worst thing I have ever done. The reason? I will have improved so much, I thought to myself.

As it will soon become abundantly clear, I had not.

Usually I bake at home, but having lost nearly all the baking equipment I’ve ever bought, I was offered the chance to bake it at the home of someone who loves baking: Janine Gibson, BuzzFeed UK’s editor.

I wanted no stress, so when I got there I decided to weigh out all the ingredients. This took well over an hour, which caused great stress.

Then I blocked the sink.

Later, I needed the oven gloves to get my mixture out of the oven, so I asked Janine for them. “I’ll give them to you in a second,” she said. “I’m just dealing with this shitshow.”

She then asked me: “Why does it smell like melted plastic in here?”

The smell was plastic, coming from the oven. Turns out it was the plastic hook that hangs the tray from the rack at John Lewis. Usually you would take the hook off, without thinking, when you first buy a tray and get it home.

I had accidentally put the plastic hook in the oven at 180°C for two hours.

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Next I had to make the green fondant that covers the cake. This was hell. What developed was a hot sticky mess that clung to my hands, the cooking board, and everything that it came into contact with. I had to throw one of my socks in the bin after some burning-hot glycerine landed on it, leaving me with one bare foot.

By the time I was piping, it was hour five. I had started at 2pm. I sent a picture of my bake to someone, only to get this response: “I think last time you did this it looked better.”

Here is the bake (with two blobs to represent the tennis balls):

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So, how stressful was baking the cake? This review comes from Janine, who was observing the whole situation: “The bit with the fondant was the most stressful of my life to date. And I’ve had two emergency C-sections.”

The next day I arrived at Bake Off. And we went straight to the tent.

The most exciting part of visiting the tent? Seeing the ovens with the retractable doors that slide back into the oven. You know, these three seconds of the show:

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Yes, I know I am sad. Stop telling me I am sad.

Standing next to one of the empty ovens while being given a tour, I felt that this was the only opportunity I would ever have to open this oven door in my life.

I asked the Bake Off PR if I could open it.

They agreed.

I lunged forward, sprung it open, folded the door back, and let out an excited squeal that I immediately regretted.

I was then taken to meet Paul and Prue, who were in a tent at the far end of the garden.

It was at this moment that I realised I hadn’t actually bothered to present the cake on anything nice. It was in a coffin (aka the largest lasagne dish we had in the house).

And then I met them.

And instead of saying my name, I introduced myself as “I can only apologise”.

Paul immediately locked eyes on the cake.

I was waiting for an immediate reaction: a comment, a laugh, a response.

But he did nothing. His face did not change.

He just stared at it. For an eternity. Like this:

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In an attempt to get Paul to react or say something, I said: “This took five hours.”

Prue did a dry laugh.

Paul then finally broke the silence.

“Were you blindfolded when you did this?”

I told him I wasn’t blindfolded.

I thought I should explain what the cake was.

“So you know the technical… You know the tennis bake?”

“I know exactly which one it is meant to be,” Paul laughed.

He was about to eat the thing, but we were then interrupted by the photographer. We had to pose together while the cake was still in one piece.

Lifting would mean a slight risk of it falling out on to the floor.

I started to joke: “If it ends up on the floor then that’ll be the least of our worr–”

“I think it might look better,” Paul interrupted.

After the photos were taken, Paul attempted to cut to the bottom of the cake with one of the sharpest knives I have ever seen. It was bloody huge, like a saw.

It could barely cut through the icing.

He was also cutting near the edge of the cake.

“I think the middle of the cake is the best bit,” I said.

“So we have to cut in the middle?” asked a slightly confused Prue.

I thought to myself, It doesn’t make any sodding difference where the hell they cut this cake, Scott. Face your failures.

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Paul bit into the cake.

The silence returned.

So instead of saying encouraging things about my bake in this silent interlude, I just offered a long list of all of the things that I had fucked up.

The icing was wrong, the baking was all wrong, this didn’t work and that didn’t work.

Prue then said these words, which at the time weirdly destroyed me: “You know, I don’t think you’re going to win Bake Off.”

“Oh no!” I responded. I was, bizarrely, really quite disheartened to hear that review.

Then I remembered what I had actually just presented to them.

“I think you might have known that,” said Paul.

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Prue reviewed the cake first. She said it tasted like her wedding cake.

I didn’t know whether this was a compliment or a criticism, having tried wedding cakes only twice in my life as I prefer the cheese at weddings, but I felt like I was floating.

Then Paul asked me: “When did you make this?”

I responded: “Last night.”

“Last NIGHT?”

I laughed, thinking that this was a joke.

He was being serious.

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Prue’s verdict on the cake? “The cake is definitely better than the icing. It actually tastes very nice.”


Paul agreed. “The cake is actually alright. You’ve slightly overbaked it, because you had that darkness on the base and darkness on the top.”


(This is an OFFICIAL request: When I die I want the words “‘The cake is actually alright’ – Paul Hollywood” next to my name on a plaque on a nice park bench.)

“The icing, however, is fascinating,” he continued. “This is meant to resemble a tennis court, with piping which is a millimetre thick around the delicate edges of the cake, with the nice green Wimbledon finish with a net across. Delicate piping round the outside. It is all about the movement of the piping bag… Were you on a train when you iced this?”

“No, I wasn’t.”

He then elaborated, in intricate detail, on how I needed to pipe round the edge first and the importance of consistency in my piping work.

Here’s a flashback to my piping work the previous night:

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Paul said: “Your nozzle was wrong to begin with.”

Prue interrupted: “Paul, Paul. Paul. Give the guy a chance. I mean…”

“I have!” he said. “I’ve eaten it!”

(Actually, you know what? Scrap that park bench idea.)

“What I want to say is that I actually don’t think you should be giving him the finer tips of quite sophisticated icing,” said Prue. “What he needs to be taught is how to use a piping bag to start with and how to make a simple icing.”

“Smaller nozzle. I think you only had one-nozzle-fits-all,” Paul clarified.

Sure, the piping work is the only improvement I need, I thought.

Then things escalated. I told them that I had done this technical challenge before, 18 months earlier, and in fact I had done every single one in 2015 and 2016.

“Do you have pictures with your older bakes? He says with dread.”

He says with dread is not me describing Paul’s tone to you; he actually said that.

So I whipped out my phone and showed them my article from two years ago, starting with my technical challenge tennis court cake from the first time round.

“This was the first time I made it,” I told them.

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Paul and Prue could not stop laughing.

I then showed them the mokatines, which I made another week.

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“No uniformity,” I commented.

“No,” responded Paul.

I then showed them these arlettes.

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Paul’s verdict: “Wow. Wow. That’s interesting…”

His review of all of the different bakes I tried in 2015?

“I hope you write better than you bake.”

“Well, I think you’re very original. I think it is good fun,” said Prue.

“And it’s definitely one of the worst cakes I’ve seen,” said Paul.

“Absolutely,” followed Prue.

Then, out of nowhere, Paul offered me a wager.

“I think you should carry on making these until you get it right. I’d be happy to see you again when you think you’ve got it right. No point phoning me up when it looks like that. Phone me up when you think it looks good. Look at the worst one that was on that year, the tennis cake, and if you think it’s good then I’ll come and see ya, alright?”

Here is the worst tennis cake from that episode in 2015, which belonged to a contestant called Mat, who accidentally put his icing in the oven instead of the freezer.

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It still looks better than mine, even though in the episode Paul said that Mat’s cake looked like “a tennis court from Hades” and Mary Berry said it was raw.

Can’t wait to speak to you, Paul, when I have perfected this in the year 2047.

And then suddenly he reached out to shake my hand.

I was rather taken aback.

What the fuck?

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But it wasn’t the classic Hollywood Handshake – the one that he gives when the baker has absolutely smashed it out of the park and the bake cannot be improved any more.

No, it was a handshake from him to me to him, meaning this:


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